Wednesday, August 28, 2019

Pouring out the oil

And behold, a woman of the city, who was a sinner, when she learned that he was reclining at table in the Pharisee's house, brought an alabaster flask of ointment, and standing behind him at his feet, weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears and wiped them with the hair of her head and kissed his feet and anointed them with the ointment. Now when the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, “If this man were a prophet, he would have known who and what sort of woman this is who is touching him, for she is a sinner.” And Jesus answering said to him, “Simon, I have something to say to you.” And he answered, “Say it, Teacher.”

“A certain moneylender had two debtors. One owed five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. When they could not pay, he cancelled the debt of both. Now which of them will love him more?” Simon answered, “The one, I suppose, for whom he cancelled the larger debt.” And he said to him, “You have judged rightly.” Then turning toward the woman he said to Simon, “Do you see this woman? I entered your house; you gave me no water for my feet, but she has wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. You gave me no kiss, but from the time I came in she has not ceased to kiss my feet. You did not anoint my head with oil, but she has anointed my feet with ointment. Therefore I tell you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven—for she loved much. But he who is forgiven little, loves little.” And he said to her, “Your sins are forgiven.” Then those who were at table with him began to say among[a] themselves, “Who is this, who even forgives sins?” And he said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.” -Luke 7:37-50


Learnings from the Tim Keller sermon (Faith in Jesus)

  • She was a prostitute of the town, so for her the perfume was part of her job. 
  • To pour the oil, she would have had to break the jar.
  • At the time, men were allowed to divorce their wives if they let down their hair. The only time she would have let down her hair was when she was getting paid. She freely did it here.
  • The only power she had in the world was her desirability and she poured it out at his feet. This is the thing she trusted in. 
  • Saving faith is not just believing in Jesus and believing he did all these wonderful things. It's finding out the central things in my life, and pouring them at his feet. 

Saturday, August 24, 2019

The Lord's Prayer

Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name.
Your kingdom come,
Your will be done,
    on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
and forgive us our debts,
    as we also have forgiven our debtors.
And lead us not into temptation,
    but deliver us from evil.

Monday, August 12, 2019

Do not lose heart

So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. - 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
Help me Lord, not to lose heart. You have called me not to look at the things that are seen, but to focus on the unseen. In all situations. Again, faith. To have faith and strength not to grow discouraged. Thank you for providing scripture for every feeling you've created us to feel. You knew when Paul was writing this letter to the church of Corinth, that I would find so much peace in these words. You are good. May I not lose heart. May You help me to focus on the things that are unseen.  

God is faithful

“God is faithful.” -1 Corinthians 10:13
God is full of faith, I thought as the wind blew. God is the God of faith. My faith comes from Him. God is faithful.  

Sunday, August 11, 2019

a celebration banquet

Then Jesus said to his host, “When you give a luncheon or dinner, do not invite your friends, your brothers or sisters, your relatives, or your rich neighbors; if you do, they may invite you back and so you will be repaid. But when you give a banquet, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind, and you will be blessed. Although they cannot repay you, you will be repaid at the resurrection of the righteous. - Luke 14:12-14
Another vision. Us, inviting the poor and the homeless. Us, renewing our vows before God. Us, celebrating our union before Your people. Us, together with you in the center. Us, depending on You.  Us, trusting you. Us, believing in You. Us, respecting You. Us, submitting to You.

Holding hands

Lord, thank you for encouraging friends. You provide when I need you the most. You take away my doubt and You speak truth to me through others. Help me to seek you when I doubt and when I have unbelief. Why is my belief so fickle?

How this must hurt you! You have given your son's life. And all you ask me is to have faith. Lord, fill me with faith. I don't want to be like the waves in the ocean. I want to anchor my life to You. Grab ahold of me, and don't let me fall. When I'm walking and not stumbling, I think I can walk by myself because I am prideful. And through Your grace, you show me what life looks like without You. Life without You leads to sin and sadness and the cost is eternity separated from You. I don't want to walk without you. I need you, no matter where I am going.

I have this image of me just holding Your hand for the rest of my life. I don't want to let go. 

Divine power to destroy strongholds

For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ, being ready to punish every disobedience, when your obedience is complete. - 2 Corinthians 10:3-6
Why do I think my words will win this fight? Why do I think I am able to fight this? You clearly remind us through the New Testament that this fight is not against humans - this fight is against spirits and demons. My words will not win the fight. But You have already won the fight with Your power.

May these verses make me a prayer warrior, not a worrier. May I humbly come before Your throne and pray in You for you to defeat the enemy. Remind me that the enemy has no stronghold on You. And because I am in You (Hallelujah!), the enemy has no stronghold on me. You are my protector.

Remind me Lord that when I am weak, you are strong. When I am doubting, you are faithful. Take away my unbelief and replace it with a heart of faithfulness that surpasses understanding. For love is stronger than evil. You are Love. Thank you Lord that you have given me the tools to fight this fight.

May all of my thoughts be obedient to You, Lord. May my thoughts not even disobey You Lord. I want to honor you with my actions, my words, and my thoughts.

God's grace is enough

So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. - 2 Corinthians 12:7
Father, help me from being conceited. I don't want to be prideful. Will you take away my pride. Even as I write this, will you remove pride that has been in my heart for a very very long time. Please work in my heart and help me to be humble.

I read this verse and am encouraged to see how God uses suffering for His good. I don't think we always are so aware why the suffering is surrounding us, but I am growing sure that all suffering is for God's glory. What a powerful God - the enemy can't even hurt us in our suffering.
Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” - 2 Corinthians 12:8-9
My grace is sufficient in you. What does that even mean? Hmm. So God's grace is enough in Paul. There is enough grace in Paul. But why does Paul need grace when he's suffering? I'm not sure. Lord, will you reveal to me why we need grace when we're suffering. I would think faith would be more powerful.

What this Scripture does tell is that God is able to show His power when we are weak. That is when God is able to glorified more. Not when we are strong, but when we are weak. Again, I say wow! God works all things for His good.
Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. - 2 Corinthians 12:9
Father, may I only boast of my weaknesses. Take away my pride. It's a daily desire to make myself look better than others. You have graciously revealed this sin. Help me to be like Christ. Remind me that when I am weak, the power of Your perfect son rests upon me. Rests upon me - what does that even mean?? Again I don't know what that feels like - can you show me what that feels like?
For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong. - 2 Corinthians 12:10
Help me to be content in my weaknesses. In all weaknesses, Lord. I am so weak without you. Thank you for showing me that. Remind me Lord that when I am made weak that you make me strong, through Your power. And give me faith when I'm weak to seek You, Lord.

I love You. Thank you for revealing new lessons in this Scripture. You are removing the veil. 

Saturday, August 10, 2019

Submission

I have no control! Hallelujah! This is not my decision to make! I relinquish control over this situation and submit to God's will. I get it - God is revealing this truth to me. It made me fearful 1 week ago, and even yesterday. But I was just given so much peace. This is not my decision. I am called to humbly, prayerfully submit to my God. God will have the final say. God bless, this is not in my hands. Thank you God for giving me this gift of freedom - may you remind me of this truth if I forget or become anxious.

When I become anxious, may I turn to You in prayer. May I turn to your Word. May I not turn to my own feelings. May I not evaluate the situation based on what is going on and what I see. May I see what you want me to see. May I learn what you want me to learn. Take away my pride and my control in this situation. You are powerful and almighty. You move mountains, You stopped the sun, You split the sea, You soften hearts. You are a God of power and I give my control over to you. Fill me with faith and trust in You. For my heart is weak as I learn to trust you again. Please be patient with me. For I want to serve you, but I am a sinner. You love me - remind me of that. Remind me that in your arms is the most joy I will have in this world and in the next. Not in my own understanding, or in someone else's arms, but in Yours.

Your son died for me - that's how much you love me. Remind me Father. When I am sad or lonely. I should never be lonely because you have given me Your Spirit. Fill me with Your Holy Spirt. I love you Lord. Thank you for this peace. For this peace is not based on what is going on - it's trust that You are sovereign. And through everything, Your will will be done. May I seek you all my days, and please Lord remind me that you will never leave my side. May I constantly humble myself and may you FILL me with Your Spirit.

Give me a heart of understanding, compassion, love, forgiveness, self control, gentleness, and kindness. Make me turn away from earthly desires or thoughts. May all of this be through Your strength, and not my own. May I come to You when I am tired and sad. Lord, please help me to read the Bible and hear what You are teaching me. Thank you Lord for your peace and love. And Lord, please fill me with faith.

In Your Heavenly Name - Amen

Faith and Freedom in Him

Does he who supplies the Spirit to you and works miracles among you do so by works of the law, or by hearing with faith - just as Abraham “believed God, and it was counted to him as righteousness”?" -Galatians 3:5-6 
God has shown me how important faith is in knowing Christ. To follow God, I need faith. To believe in God, I need faith. To bring glory to God, I need faith. 

"So that in Christ Jesus the blessing of Abraham might come to the Gentiles, so that we might receive the promised Spirit through faith." -Galatians 3:14
"For in Christ Jesus you are all sons of God, through faith." -Galatians 3:26
Why then is faith so important? Then God says this: 
"For if a law had been given that could give life, then righteousness would indeed be by the law. But the Scripture imprisoned everything under sin, so that the promise by faith in Jesus Christ might be given to those who believe." -Galatians 3:21-22
God is telling us that faith was the only way that could give life. There was no other way. Learning this today, spurred me to pray for faith. Praying in faith for more faith, having faith that God would answer my prayers. And again, why is faith so important to God? 

Is there another emotion or action or feeling that could give life? I don't think so. God knew that faith took the control out of His people's hands and put it back into God's hands. Even as we receive faith, God is the one in control. 


It would be easy to think that having faith gives us no control. That we have have no freedom in being faithful. That we must do what God obeys. And yet, God reveals how there is freedom in knowing Christ: 

"For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery." -Galatians 5:1 
"For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another." -Galatians 5:13
Paul then describe the affects of faithfully walking with the Holy Spirit:
"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law." -Galatians 5:22-23
Faith is giving up control and entrusting it to our faithful God. Desiring control over a situation is the exact opposite of what you've called us to do. I'm learning that there is freedom in having no control.

Turning to God

I woke up this morning with a vision from God, and I wanted to share it so I don't forget.

In the middle of a dark room, it was only me and a heart covered in metal. My hands were yanking at the metal that surrounded the heart, trying to quickly remove it. Nothing I did worked to remove the metal encasing from the heart.

And I realized that rather than trying with my own strength to uncover the heart, that I should bow down before the heart and pray. So I started praying, with the heart lifted in front of me. Then it was made known to me that I should not be praying to the heart, but I should be praying to God. So I turned my back on the heart covered in metal, and moved closer to God to pray. 

Pouring out the oil

And behold, a woman of the city, who was a sinner, when she learned that he was reclining at table in the Pharisee's house, brought an ...